Missing Someone

Poems

Have you ever told your love one that you love him/her?

Have you ever promised him/her that you will not break your promise anymore?

Have you ever thought of telling him/her something but end up just keeping quiet?

Have you ever thought of taking picture with him/her so that you can show to everyone that he/she is someone important to you?

Will it be too late when you realize that just when you want to express your love and they are gone?

Life is so short. When you think everything will be as usual and he/she will be there when you want to see them but in real they are gone.

Life is so short. When you think that he/she will smile at you and chat with you when you need them, but in real they will never smile and talk to you.

Life is so short. When you think that there will always be next time for you and he/she, but in real that is actually their last time.

Life is so short. No one knows what will happen next. Cherish everything that you have and be thankful to everyone and everything. Tell your love one that you love them. Don't wait till it is too late.

人生苦短，但谁又真的能走完这条路？
你的离去是否代表你不再属于我们了？
你是否听得见我们对你的思念呢？
你是否会为我们的愤怒而感到忧心？
我们不会再伤心了。我们会振作起来的。
因为我们都知道你会化成天上的星星来保护我们。。



This is contribute to my friend's cousin( 18 years old) who passed away in a car accident.
Everything written by Tisha

New poems of Tisha

Tisha's Poems

Tisha 喜欢说话.因为她不想像她的影子一样，只有动作没有表情和言语。

Tisha 喜欢笑，因为她希望她的亲朋好友会因为她的笑容而有好心情

有人曾经说过，当 Tisha 伤心的时候就如太阳被乌云遮住，没有了光彩。

当 Tisha不在的时候，朋友们就会说不习惯，因为少了她的声音和欢笑

我笑，并不代表我快乐。我哭，并不代表我伤心。你所看的表面的并不真实。唯一 真实的是我对大家的真心。拥有你们我感到很快乐，我应该满足和感恩。

Mooncake festival

MOON CAKE FESTIVAL 2008

On 14th September, i just came back from Brunei but i managed to join my friend for the lantern patrol (walking around with lantern and give signal to people to stop, slow down and go) . We started our journey from Curtin Village then we set up our lantern, lighted the candle. After that we walked to Villa. It was not a long journey, and surprisingly not much mosquitoes. I think that was because i did apply insect repellent. We met May and Eleena at Villa, sadly May's lantern was burned while we were on our journey to find Jun.It was a fun experienced, walking around with lantern and met ohter group of people with lanterns as well. Greeting them with words such as " selamat hari raya, happy new year, ang bao come come, merry christmans and happy birthaday" all those festivals that were not related to moon cake festival. It was beatiful to see a line of lanterns together. You all should try in the future. Especially when u are holding a lantern with some one you think is speacial. It will be romantic just two of you holding a lantern under a round moon. Unfortunately, that day it was not a round moon. Indeed we couldnt see the moon.

Middle of the road.Holding my lantern

Infront of Village, end of our lantern patrol. 1 of our 10 shots cam-whoring

They all trying to kacau me while i was answering my phone call

Sorrounded me with lanterns -.-|||

This look scary(remind me of one ps2 game-Fatal Frame/ Project Zero. dunno why)

My moon cake festival was fun, no moon cake to eat but at least i had a lantern. Where is my lantern?! Rosak and buang already hahaha

"Tisha is from Outer Space!"

Tisha is from outer space because:-

1) No one can understand what she is talking about (Proven by Tyrone, Adeline, Pei Wen, Michelle T, Wei di and many many more...)

2) Her voice is easy to identify, loud and sharp, people can easily recognise her voice no matter where she is. Her voice will makes you have nightmare. (Proven by Kim, Michelle ,Adeline, Pei wen and many many more)

Based on this 2 evidences, it is not valid enough to prove that Tisha is from outer space.

1st...I do notice that when i speak no one really understand, may be i do not arrange my words properly when i talk? People say this means that i am actually talking without even think that is it right or wrong to say this way. In other words, I am talking without using my brain. Thats why when i talk, people will laugh or feel angry some even feel like want to kill me. Even after i had attended critical thinking 061, i am still not able to think and talk critically. I will try to change and i will think before i speak out, but i doubt it...

Haha...might take a long time to change. So sorry...my friends, u all still have to bare with me for few years before i change.

Secondly, my voice is born to be like this. It is originally like that so i cant change. If my voice really give people nightmare then i am sorry. -.- I apologise. But there is nothing much i can do wit it lorr..so sorry..I dun think my voice is scary, at least some people say it is cute..hehehehe

So....................Tisha is not from Outer Space and i am not going back to any planet. I am from earth!

(the reason i write this because today got people complain tat i am from outer space thats y they find it difficult to understand wat i am talking about)

Our 4 years

There are 1461 days, 35046 hours and 126,230,400 seconds in four years. What can we do in four years time?

Some people might give birth to their 4th kids, some people might get married from their 4 years relationship, some people might graduate from their degree, some people might break up or divorce from their 4 years relationship or some people might come out from jail?

What can i do in four years time? or i should say what did i do and learn in four years time?from 4/9/2004 - 4/9/2008? Four years is not a long period, it is not even half a decade. But i learn a lot from this four years, from the age of 16-20, from a teenager to an adult. I learn to love, care and be sincere in everything i have.

My bear bear has been with me for 4 years, he is 4 years old now. The size is getting smaller and smaller because i hug him everyday and night. But my feeling towards him is getting deeper and deeper. Since the first day i got him,I know that i will love him so much tat i wont let him go. No matter where i go, if i cant bring him around with me, i feel empty. I feel that there is something missing and i am not a complete person.

I always talk to my bear bear( yah~~i am crazy) whenever i am happy,sad,nervous or angry. He is the one who always stay beside me when i am facing difficulties. Yes, it might be just a soft toy but for me it is more than that. It is a gift given by someone and i teasure it a lot. Sometime i will imagine that if my bear bear will turn into a human, it will be a very cute little kid that will be with me forever. I hope my bear bear can be with me as long as he can. I know things will be spoilt no matter what, especially soft toy like him. Even the cotton in his body is getting thinner and thinner. Sooner or later he will be a skinny teddy bear. But i know no matter wat, he will be my best teddy bear and i will never forget him.

Happy 4 years old

Need massage?

Tisha is very good at massaging (at least this is wat i think), my mum is the one who i always massage for. She doesnt has to ask me, or anything i will just put my hand on her shoulder and massage for her. She always say she feels comfortable, so i am happy to massage for her. But i cant always have the chance to massage for her because i am staying in Miri, and i go back once in one month.....

Therefore, Tisha bought her something from JB. Which she can massage anytime and anywhere.

These were wat i bought~~Handi massager, Flexi-Hand and Viro beats massager.

3 of them actually cost me RM140-160.Bought from City Square in JB

Viro beats massager. There are 6 animals to choose from such pig, panda, tiger, bear, sheep and squarrel(correct spelling?). It has 6 modes of massages. Just like those osim massage chair. I bought this for my dad actually, because he always has to drive from Brunei to Kuching. So this might be useful for him when he feel tired. It needs 3 AA battery. how much? $60-$70

Handi massager. Among all, my mum like this the best. This is because the the strength of this handi massager is stronger, it is more convenient and is really comfortable. This is actually the cheapest among the rest. It needs 3 D type battery. How much? $20-$30

Flexi-Hand. It is consider as the useless massage tools for my mum. Both the 2 hands have sticky thingy so they u can stick tat around ur neck. It is good for u wen u r driving and ur neck are pain. But my mum dun like it because it is not long enough to circle her waist. But this is meant for neck..so cant blame it. Where is this thing?it is with me. Hehehe. It needs 4 AA batteries and It cost $40-50

(i will stop here 1st, 4am..sleepy)

Things happened on 30th and 31st August part 3

What happen? - Tisha cut her hair (Front)

When? - 9.00am ++

Where? - carpark of the church

Who? - My mum's friend

Why? - Because that is the only time we are free.

So, i cut my hair when there were many people walking around. Luckily they are all Filipino.so i dun mind. Since Tisha so muka tebal..and i wan pretty mah, so i wont care any anything de..so after i cut i attented the mass..

So this is me lorr~~~with my 傻傻 hair, i notice my eye brown very light~~ugly~wat ever~~

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From the picture above u can notice i wear nice nice, hehehe becoz i am going to shopping wit my dad. So i wear nice nice so my dad can be proud of his little beautiful daughter. So we went to The mall 1st and there was car exhibition. Lets see the pictures....

Most powerful, Most Agile, Most technologically Advaced Lancer Evo eh, How much is it? 80k ++ (Brunei dollars)

Wao~~a huge different between the engine power of EVO 9 and 10, those who bought EVO 9 will cry.haha

Really nice looking~~i like it! I really go crazy wen i saw it~>.<

Back~~(scroll down and compare with my previous post, see the back of my car. See the differences?!)

I dunno wat car is this..but look nice~~kekekek

Camry~~Only 44k, my dad said the Camry that we have is slightly expensive(45K) when we bought it. Because ours is assembly in Japan. And this one? he told me assembly in Thailand)

Volvo~~nice nice nice~~!! 80K++

side view

There were many cars there, even got suzuki ,proton and etc. What is the car that caught my attention? Chana's Benni

(source :http://www.tsikot.com/wp-content/uploads/2008/06/chana_benni11.jpg)

This car is from china, how much? 12k, they rebate 2k thats mean 10k! see how cheap? is the cheapest car in the exhibition. And they use suzuki engine eh~~!! I couldnt take the picture becoz this car is out of stock. so i grap from other site.Hehehehe.. For me it looks like Toyota Echo. Hahaha, imagine how many Benni i can buy if i bought EVO 10? i can buy 8-9 of this car eh~~hahaha..But my dad dun trust this car, he rather buy a trusted brand...hmmmmm sad!

Things happened on 30th and 31st August part 2

Brunei Cup, a basketball tournament that happen annually in Brunei. Every August, basketball teams from different county will come to Brunei and participate in this tournament. This year, we have teams from Sinapore, Australia, London, Korea and Philippines. Want to know more information please visit http://www.bruneicup.com/.

Final

LG Sakers V.S Sinapore Slingers

LG Sakers

LG Sakers was the champion of Brunei Cup last year, therefore we are looking forward for their performance in the Final. No team has defeated the LG Sakers in the Brunei Cup and every time when they play catch-up, LG Sakers have enough firepower to pull away on numerous occasion. They are sharper than any other teams beyond the arc and their import players especially Ivan Johnson is the driving force for the Koreans.

What do Cho Sang-Hyun, Lee Ji-Un, Lee Hyun-Min, Myoung-Jun Suk and Ivan Johnson have in common? They all can shoot 3 pointers and this is what make them dangerous to play against. Furthermore, the Koreans are fast on the court and they can tire their opponents late in the game. This shows how fit these players are. It will take more than just tactics to outclass the Koreans.(http://www.bruneicup.com/)

Sinapore Slingers

Singapore Slingers, on the other hand, have a few key players to look out for. Darren Ng, whose real profession is a doctor, is a solid performer and when he's on a hot streak.He could be the answer to the Koreans' 3-pointer shooting department.

Jason Castro, Armein Kirkland and Blagoj Janev can prove too much to handle if they play their cards right. Castro can change the tempo of the game and he has the pace to unsettle the point guards.(http://www.bruneicup.com/)

What happened last night? visit http://www.bruneicup.com/. Who was the winner? Sinapore Slingers.

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Tisha comments

As an audience, i admit i was not really watching them. Haha i was busy MSN-ing, talking, yawning. It was not excited, those korean are stupid! they cant shoot well. Mana ada 3 points?! they cant even get 3 points at the begginig of the game. Stupid! I was supporting those korean actually, but was disappointed. They were the champion for last year again, and they met the same team again. ( Last year, LG Sakers V.S. Sinapore Slingers for Champion also) Slingers has improved a lot, they can easily get 2 points and 3 points. Those korean! ah~~! i wanna kill them! so stupid! But last few minutes i was acutally enjoying, because it became exciting. Hehehe~so overall i did enjoy..So wat was the results? It was 86-75.

Things happened on 30th and 31st August

Last night~~something happened to my parents. They were involved in an accident, luckily is a minor accident( is this the word use?轻微的车祸）My dad was not the one who told us that they were involved in accident, it was my sis's bf's friend.. see how far?haha~~

Then we tried to call our father but he was busy discussing with that little boy who knocked him. So he just answered us tat he was okie and then he hang up the phone. I was no satisfy so i called him again..the 1st thing i ask:

"You kopi O license ah!?"

then he replied "yah, thank you. bye bye" -.-|||

We know tat our father is a CAUTIOUS driver,unlike those fast and furious he always drive slow and steady. So we know that he is okie since he sound okie to us.

When we went home, we try to look at our lancer. It looked okie to me, becuase the shape still nice and the colour okie~~still shiny red..(from the back view) but then when i walk to the right side of the car which is the driver seat, i saw the car bend in~hmmmmm..my lovely car! sad..but then luckily the ppl didnt knock directly to the driver seat. The bend is is nearer to the back seat( then i realise i am lucky because i didnt follow them, if i do i will scare till i dun dare to drive anymore~~!!)

This morning before going to church, i asked my mum:

"Are you scared?"

"No...no rasa"

I was like, wah~~no rasa and the car already like that?haha~~i actually not worry bout my dad, i worry bout my mum more. Since she so geng and say no rasa. So should be okie lorr..

How the accident happened?

This was how it happened...

The little boy (26 years old) who suppose to stop because of red light...didnt stop..and knock my dad's car who is obeying the law and drive safely according to the green light shown. like that lorr~~small case. But that boy say he got no money! no money then obey the law larr idiot! no money dun take risk mah~celaka!luckily my parents okie! if not i kill him!

Driving Licence

Tisha got her driving license on 30/6/2008 at the age of 20. Yes, she is old, she supposes to get it at the age of 17 but…….

This is how the story goes…

I went to listen for driving law after i finished my Form5 with my brother and his friends, then i noticed i didnt understand what the man was talking about (My malay rojak~!) so on the exam day, haha~~i failed. This was because i didnt even study at all..and those malay words make me blur. i dun understand it and i will never understand it. This is what i told myself..

After the 1st trial, i wanna to have 2nd trial..but i escaped. I didnt go..After that i didnt have any chance to think bout the driving law exam because i went to NZ to further my study…

Then…when i came back and decided to study in Miri, i reliased that i must learn to drive. Because my dad will be tired of sending me to miri from brunei or vice versa and that is my motive to learn driving.

So i started to learn driving, and i found my instructor first. My instructor is Mr. Bong XX, with the car plate of XXX8×8x. He is actually my far far far far relative. So i just chose him..and ask him what to do if i want to get driving license. So he arranged my things for me, wen i sud go listen for law and he even brought me there. That time, I felt so lucky to have him as my instructor.

Then after i attended my law session, i try to escape again. Because i didnt understand Malay and i give lots of excuses to escape. Until my friend Pei wen, Michelle and Adeline forced me then i decided to memorise the law book and the 500 questions book.

My friends say that i was terrible, my 500 questions book was full of Chinese and English explanation. Poeple use 1 day to study i use 5 days to memorise. All my friends were worry bout me and helped me a lot. They even sent me to my exam place and waited for my in a place. Luckily i passed! with 47/50 hehehe~So tat day, i was so happy. I treated all my friend eat ABC. which cost Rm 27+++. Just to add on, that day after i got my result i was so happy, and while walking down the stair..i fell down. Hahaha..luckily i was not injured, this was a funny experience.

Then i went to listen engine talk.Then few days after that,i started my driving lesson. That was when my nightmare came.i get scolded every time by my instructor and i complained everytime before and after i learned my driving. I hate my instructor! i promised myself i not going to smile at him whenever i see him! What was even worst, my driving exam is on 25/6 which was during my exam week. Luckily that day i didnt have any exam. There was something funny happened, 24/6 is our maths exam. all my friends were worry bout their maths and they keep saying tat “cham lorr…maths how?fail lorr~~” then i added on..”cham lorr how?! my driving!?” they all felt like wanted to punch me~~hahaha..i should proudly say me and michelle thye were the only 2 person who already passed that subject with internal mark.(dun ask wat is my result for that subject!! is not good!) haha~~so there was nothing to worry bout.

So the night before the exam, i couldnt sleep well. I prayed and prayed so that i could pass. Next morning, i woke up very early then walked to entrance of Curtin to wait for my instructor. When the car arrived, i was surprised to see 3 other girls in the girl. Suddenly I felt released because i was not the only who had exam on that day. Then i reliased i was wrong, all of them were his students for that morning. Sad -.- That morning,my intructor was so kind he brought 4 of us for breakfast. I started to feel to like him and thought that he was not that evil.

When i reached the destination, i noticed that there was another student of him having driving exam on that day. So, me and her made friend and started to talk something bad about our instructor. I notice that other instructors were worried bout their students and they let their student practised and pracitsed. My instructor?haha~~that money face fellow was busy teaching his 3 students. So we just sat there and looked at them while scolding our instuctor.

Around 8am, those JPJ people were here and they asked number 1 2 and 3 to get ready in the car. Then i started to feel nervous, because i was number 3. Haha that was how i make friend with number 1 and 2. Number 1 actually was a girl from Brunei as well, so we were talking..So 3 of us passed our parking, balancing and 3 point reverse. We were happily talking there till our turn for road exam.

For my driving exam, i drove very carefully and i got only 1 mistake which was i kept looking at my gear whenever i changed it. This was wat the JPJ examinator said to me. The rest, i was okay~~While on the road, he did talk to me and i still manage to drive nicely while talking to him . We reached the destination safely and he gave me 19/20 marks.

THEREFORE…..

I WANNA SAY! MY LICENSE IS NOT KOPI O! i really try my best to show him what i had learned and i really passed with my true ability! I admit i am not good in driving but on that day i really didnt bribe him! SO DONT SAY MY LICENSE IS KOPI O!! You all can say i am Lucky..but dun say Kopi O! Becuase i didnt purposely frop $50 brunei dollars and say is a tissue and he can use it! i never do tat! dun make up story~~

I try to imporve my driving skill and please forgive me if u all are having heart attack while sitting in the car…

SORRY~~

One last word…

LAETITIA BOLEH!!

Poem 诗

Poem, according to dictionary.com it is known as a composition in verse, esp. one that is characterized by a highly developed artistic form and by the use of heightened language and rhythm to express an intensely imaginative interpretation of the subject.

Tisha description for it is a sentence that explain your feeling.

Tisha likes to make her own poem, a simple and understandable poem. she gets her inspiration from her everyday life, her friends, movie and many more. she always draft her poem in her hand phone first then only type it and save in her computer.

she started to compose poem since 2004, with the use of her phone. I always make a poem before i sleep, but sadly all those poems were gone. Because her brother deleted all of them, kinda sad..

a list of Tisha’s Poems..

幸运-它不是一定的，机会-是要自己掌握的。不要羡慕别人拥有的， 而是去争取自己所要的 (Tisha 2008)

你说你放 不下她，因为她太软弱。你说她不是我，她没办法想我这么开朗。你说安慰她，待在她身边都是因为她需要你。但你告诉我说你并没爱上她。你要我明白。我怎么可 能会明白呢？我永远都不可能明白，而且也不会去明白。爱到底是什么？我开始怀疑？如果爱是一场游戏，那我一定就是游戏里的输家。因为当我爱上你的那一刻， 我就知道我永远都放不下你。如果爱是让你幸福，那我一定是不够爱你。因为我希望的幸福是我们两个人的幸福而不是你和她的。爱你我辛苦，放你走我又不舍得。 我该怎么做才好呢？（Tisha 2007）

爱到底是什么？我开始怀疑？如果爱是一场游戏，那我一定就是游戏里的输家。因为当我爱上你的那一刻，我就知道我永远都放不下你。如果爱是让你幸福，那我一定是不够爱你。因为我希望的幸福是我们两个人的幸福而不是你和她的。爱你我辛苦，放你走我又不舍得。我该怎么做才好呢？(Tisha 2007)

如果这是我所要的，为何我会后悔呢？如果这是我所要的，为何我会觉得伤心呢？如果这是我所要的，那我应该挑战自己。如果这是我所要的，我应该勇敢的走完这艰难的路。（Tisha 2007）

你说过你不会喜欢我，只为了你的她。你说了一些你曾经对她说的话，只因为现在有我。爱不爱我不知道。等不等你不确定。这就是爱你说。 这些我都不懂，只因为我的他还没出现。（Tisha 2004）

想念你的时候，我就会习惯性的望着天。而我的心也会随着我的脑海唱着我们都熟悉的那首歌。。。（Tisha 2005）

There r some more…but i need to find it.Comments accepted. BUT dun comment about my poor chinese. i wrote them with all the words i can think of

T|sHa 部落格~~bout myself

What to write? Introduce my self 1st~~

My name is Chin Yioun Siow. 陈润秀..我自认为是个很好听的名字. My name used to be erm~~Chin Choon Siow 陈春秀 when i was a baby.SEE!! Yioun Siow sound nicer~~right?

This is how the story goes….

Once upon a time~~there was a little girl born in 24th July 1988.My grand grand mother was the one who decide the name of every Chin’s grandchildren. “Chin Choon Siow will be her name~~” and yes~~that was my name before my birth certificate was made.

One morning,my mum have a meeting with my dad （kinda serious huh..becoz meeting is used instead of discussion) this is what she said “ Choon Siow is not a good name, it sounds like a prostitute name of the old day..can you imagine? ”( My mum told me that ppl use Choon Tian which is known as autumn in english as the name of the prostitution in i dunno what dynasty. And mine is Choon Siow..)

So followed by my sister’s name , Chin Yioun Lian.My mum decided to name me Chin Yioun Siow~hehe thats y i think my name is meaningful~~

I am a Christian,therefore i have a Christian name..Before i was baptism..my god mother , Alice, gave me a list of 5 Christian names..i dun rmb what were them..but i choose Laetitia..becoz it has the meaning of happy~suit me. I think it is important to be happy~~so i choose a happy name..Laetitia

BUT! one thing with Laetitia is not many people know how to pronounce it. IS not..LE-TI-DIA!! IS LE-TI-SHA!! I hate it when ppl call me LE-TI-DIA! So…i tell my friends that my name is Thisa(short form of laetitia)…simple nice~

BUT!! i make a big mistake!!! My name suppose to be Tisha, not Thisa~~i was quite disappointed wen i found out..coz i like thisa more…hmmm…hmmmm…i dunno what to do..hmmm..烦恼=.=

what else? OH!u all can notice that…my favourite colour is green..Yah, i love green..i think i start to like green since the year of 2004..

It all started on the day i bought a green school bag. I am a person who like everything to be even. When i have a bag in one colour..i wan all my stuff inside to be in the same colour as the bag..So i start to buy green keychain(which is a big doggie.And i still using it now..4 yrs lerr~~), my bottle..my fan..and many more larr.That is when i found that green is a lovely colour…heheh..

Whatelse? My personality…Those who are close to me will know that erm..i am a calculative person(in other words stingy). When i go shopping i will bring my calculator with me.This is to total the amount i spend on that day..i limit myself to spend less than $10 when i go shopping and I note down how much i spend everyday then balance them.Of course there will not be balance everytime..this is when the term surplus and deficit are used..haha..

But i dun think this is consider as stingy…This is call saving for future use lorr~~my bro always say i am money face..lalalala i dun care..hahaha

I dunno what am i writing..hahah just for fun~~have fun reading!

(source :http://smilepig.blogs.friendster.com/smilepig/ edited 28/8/2008)